So I had prom. IT WAS SO MUCH EFFING FUN! =)

I ate. I got my picture taken. I danced my ass off. It was sick. So much fun.

Peter Murphy got prom king. OUR PROM KING IS GAY! I think that's so fucking awesome. hahaha =)

All-in-all a good time. After all the before-hand bullshit was said and done, it turned out nice.

A perfect world is impossible.

It's supposed to be a graduation speech.

I stand before you today, probably for the last time. This is the last time we will all be together, and I could not be any happier about that. These past four years, I have lost all of my faith in people, as a whole. It started out great, just like anyone would like to start their high school career. I was happily involved with someone, and was secure in my group of friends. Then, things happen. People change, and you see the true colors of people you thought you had known more than enough about. Everything wanes, nothing is as good as it seems, you come to realize. These past four years have shown me, that people who you thought were your best friends, can hurt you in the most unusual ways, and far more cruelly than you could ever imagine. I have learned that ignoring it only makes the pain worse when you finally realize it. There is so much drama, and so much hate in the past four years of my life, and no one is to blame but you people. I would get ready every day, just to be scrutinized by the thousands of pairs of eyes. I would work as hard as I could, just to pull off a passing grade, while others would get through without doing anything. None of you realize how much each and every one of you affects the other. None of you realize that every look, every pass in the hallway, changes a person’s life. My high school career has shown me that, in the real world, no one will truly care about you, and the people you trust will hurt you worse than those you consider your enemies. I stand before you today, to let you know that you all have changed my life, probably for the worse. Whoever said these were the best years of your life…they lied.

Ps. This one has nothing to do with the way I feel. haha

I dropped my cell phone in the toilet.

Recently, I made a decision to take almost all of my close friends, and throw them out of my life. It was for the better. These people weren't really my friends. They took me for granted, or so it seemed. They would only be my friend when they needed help through a problem. Once I was the one that helped them cope, I was cast off, to fend for myself. What kind of friend is that? One that I like to call a "not friend." I slowly started to break out, with support of newfound friends outside of the tightly knit circle. They'd encourage me, saying things like, "You'll be better off without them." For a while, I believed I was. But, I've noticed that things have slowly been dissipating, and my faith in people as friends declining faster than I thought possible. I'm sick of feeling like I'm the only one that puts any effort into my friendships. I'm also starting to feel like this feeling is inevitable. All of this leads me to one question. One question left to ask myself:

Was it worth it?


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How's that for an original monologue?

Cuddling!

Acting. and Love.

My sign is Capricorn, on the cusp of Aquarius. I think horoscopes and astrology are cool, because they show you what your potential is. =)

Scrubs.

Hey so guess what!

Jocelyn, that girl i asked out at homecoming, got over the douchebag keeping her from dating me...and now we're going out.

HECK YES!

So, last night, as some of you may know, was the Plymouth South Homecoming Dance. The theme was "Bubble Bash" and the only thing bubbly about is were the two bubble machines, one of which not working, that were placed outside as you walked through the doors. I stood outside for a good 10 minutes with a few of my friends, and then finally decided to go in. Once I got in, i had to be Caitlyn's leaning post as she took of her shoes. I walked in to find Cassie sitting with her boy, and one of their friends. Then, I was greeted by J-Me and her posse who promptly dragged me to the dancefloor to dance. I danced with her and her friends for a while, but then i got bored and went off on a scavenge for my other friends. I got off the lower level of the cafeteria while being bumped and pushed by the massive amounts of people that cram their fat asses into a very small space, and I spotted Jack, Sarah, Bobby, Chelsea, Trevor, and Jocelyn.

So, yeah. The DJ played many great songs for people to bump and grind to, which is exactly what everyone on that small sliver of the cafeteria was doing. It was SO HOT. Like, you do not understand. It was as if we were in the Sunnydale gym, and the Hellmouth was wide open right underneath us. I bought like 7 water bottles. I got so sweaty and disgusting, but so did everyone else, so it was okay. I danced with Sarah, Jack's new old girlfriend, Diane, Peter's cousin. She was the first girl i danced with that was taller than me. I danced with Sam Sayward for like 1 second, and Giana for like a second. And then, the girl i danced the most with, was Jocelyn. I didn't dance with Hannah once in fear of her Irish boyfriend Oisin (said Oh-sheen) going on a drunken rage in my general direction. But, yeah, i pissed Jocelyn's date, Trevor, right off because i kept dancing with her. And he pissed Jocelyn right off because he wouldn't let her dance with anyone else...which also pissed me off. But anyways, I danced with Jocelyn a lot. And, J-Me said she'd save me a dance, so we danced to Survivor together. And then Caitlyn also promised me a dance, so we danced to I Like Big Butts.

So yeah, and then I danced a slow dance with Jocelyn, and I decided to ask her out. You need a little backstory to understand. I asked her out before, and she said she needed to get to know me better. So, i was like "Hey, do you remember last year when i asked you out?" and she was like "Yeah...." and i was like "Well, do you think you know me well enough yet?" And she like thought about for like a second and then she was like "Uhm, i don't really want a boyfriend right now." So, yeah. She said no. And she feels bad about it.

And today, I was talking to her on aim, and we got on the subject of me asking her out. and she was like "i'm really sorry about what i said." and i was like "it's seriously ok." and she was like "cause you are the LAST person i would ever want to hurt." and then she was like "we're still biffles, right?" and i was like "definitely, you aren't getting rid of me that easy." and she said "i wouldn't want to". So, it seems like she actually doesn't want a boyfriend right now, and that she likes me. But, what do you guys think? Should I wait, or just move on? I need some input.

Well, to be completely honest, my first actual cd was that of the 90's pop band known mostly in England called Steps. They had singles such as 'One for Sorrow' and 'Tragedy'. They were great to dance to when i was like 7. lol.

Hey...

ZOMGZ0RZ I'M UPDATING TWO DAYS IN A ROW OMG OMG THE WORLD IS ENDING WHAT DO I DO? AHHH.

That was me reenacting all of your reactions to this post.

But, so yeah. I met with Cooney today. Got my schedule fixed.

I'll make you a new list:
1st Period: Chorus - TONS of awesome people. Along with the few gross ones.
2nd Period: Same
3rd Period: English - Sam Saywards the only one i know as of now who is in this class.
4th Period: Same
5th Period: History of Rock N' Roll - Hellz yeah...bitches. Bobby and Josh.
6th Period: Same
7th Period Same

That's my new and improved schedule.

For anyone that hasn't heard, Jack and I got into a little spat yesterday. Made me wicked depressed. But we talked it out, and it's all good in the hood, yo.

Today is good. =D

So...as many of you know, I started school yesterday.

I'm really depressed summer's over.

As of now, here's my schedule:
1st Period: American Lit with Mr. Walker - This class is pretty cool. Doug Odell, Bobby Lively, and Kelsey Simpson are in it. Jamie Justice is too. A ton of cool people. Oh, and then there's Rachel Olson...
2nd Period: Chemistry with Mrs. Wolf - The only one of my real friends in this class is Doug. So...yeah it's okay. Mrs. Wolf is funny. and we got to blow bubbles today. So...i like this class.
3rd Period: Journalism with Mr. Walker - Meh. This class is alright. I'm not huge on it, though. Leah's in it. Brian Anderson, he's a senior dating my friend Caitlyn, is in it. And so is Peter's cousin Diane. I'm switching out, though. Into Piano.
4th Period: PreCal with Ms. Ivan - This class is huge. Like 32 people are in it. Jamie Justice and Bobby Lively are in it. But we're seated alphabetically, so...yeah.
5th Period: Study with Mr. Froman - Yeah...HATE THIS. The only person in it is Hanna Dickerson. I'm switching out ASAP.
Lunch: I'm in second lunch. Everyone else. EVERYONE else is in first lunch.
6th Period: Spanish 3 with Ms. Dias - Ali Gomes is in this class. Woot. but i can't understand a single word the teacher says...oops.
7th Period: US History 2 with Mr. McGuinness - This class is alright. Kelsey Simpson, Liz Arponan, Kent whatever (the guy J-ME's dating), and a few other people are in this class. It's alright. but i sit inbetween Austin Morrison and Sade. Ugg.

So, yeah. That's my schdule. But this is what i think i'm gonna do. I'm gonna switch into Chorus, which is first period, so i'll lose my awesome 1st period english class. Then I want to switch out of journalism into Piano. And then I want to switch out of my study and go into History of Rock and Roll. Not so much for the class, but because it'll get me into the first lunch. Bobby's taking it, so that'll be cool. So...yeah.

Hopefully Cooney won't be a douche and let me do this. Cause...I really don't want to be in journalism anymore. It better happen like...tomorrow. or else.

...There, happy? I updated.

If you could be another person for a day, who would it be and why?

A girl on her period, to understand what it's like.

EVER SINCE THIS WHOLE WORLD BEGAN A WOMAN FOUND OUT IF SHE SHOOK IT SHE COULD SHAKE UP A MAN AND SO I'M GONNA SHAKE AND SHIMMY IT THE BEST THAT I CAN TODAAAAY CAUSE YOU CAN'T STOP THE MOTION OF THE OCEAN OR THE RAIN FROM ABOVE YOU CAN TRY TO STOP THE PARADISE WE'RE DREAMING OF BUT YOU CANNOT STOP THE RHYTHM OF TWO HEARTS IN LOVE TO STAAAAY CAUSE YOU CAN'T STOP THE BEAT!

 

If you could rename yourself in real life, what would you choose, and why?

I wouldn't change my name.

Hey. What's up?

So...I guess I'll start with the bad news. Pepe was in the hospital again. They found out that he has colon cancer. He's home right now. They say that if he gets strong enough, they'll be able to operate. He's meeting with a surgeon on Monday. I'm kind of taking it pretty hard.

Good news...the play is going okay. We're doing it out in the audience. Most of it won't even be on the stage. It's a cool concept, but when the cafeteria's full of people, you can't really see everywhere very well. So, if we can do it, and do it right, it should be really good. And we don't have a set yet.

Alice in Wonderland on the 25th and 26th. come and see it if you want. it's at 7 on the 25th and 2 on the 26th. I guess after i saw the script, i realized i was wrong about most of the parts people got cast. It should be good. The only thing that I don't like is that I was cast as a character that's too much like myself. I want to be challenged, you know?

The play's on the same day that PotC 3 comes out. So, come to my play and then go see it.

I feel like I've changed a lot in the past few months. In a good way. I'm glad that I joined Drama. It's fun. And I really like acting. And people say I'm pretty good. I just hope they don't have a biased opinion. My friend, Hannah, said that she likes how, when I act, I completely commit to the character.

I got a job at Wal*Mart. I'm a cashier. $8.15 an hour. I like the job, but I just HATE having one. It sucks growing up. I decided that I'm only working in the summer cause my grades are going down now. I'd rather do good in school than have a job. And I'm thinking about playing tennis next year, so with that and drama, i would have no time.

I've basically mapped out my last two years of high school already. Next year I'm taking American Lit Accelerated, Pre-Cal Accelerated, US History 2 Accelerated, Spanish 3 Accelerated, Chem Accelerated, Piano Lab, Gym, and Journalism.

Then Senior Year, I'm taking Calculus AP, World Lit AP, whatever history accelerated, physics accelerated, theater arts 1 and 2, gym, chorus, and some other half-year course.

It's weird. I'm almost done with high school. i'll be driving this summer. in two years, i'll be going to college. I think for theater arts. maybe. but i'm not sure yet. i hate growing up.

I've made a new friend. His name's Jack. We've only been friends for about 2 months, but I consider him one of my best friends. It's cool. But it's really mind-boggling to me that we became such good friends so fast. I think it's just because we're really similar people. And it's not like it's a bad thing. It's just weird.

Well, that's what's happened in the past two months. Exciting, no? No, not really. But i thought some of you might want to know about me. So..there you go. I'm gonna go to sleep now.

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Hey.

You know how Andrea just got her first job interview at the workout place(ironic, no?)? Well, I'm filling out my first application to Wal*Mart today! Huzzah! Yeah, I'm applying to Wal*Mart in like...2 hours. Good times.

So, wanna hear something completely ABSURD? Cause it pretty much is. Drama Club, that is. No, not Drama Club, Mrs. Fish. I don't know WHAT she was on when she made up the cast list, but...this is what I know of it as of now. I'll fill it in later. It's for Alice in Wonderland, in case I didn't tell people what are next play is going to be.

Alice - Sam Sayward...love her, but not as Alice. HANNAH JOHNSON SHOULD'VE BEEN ALICE!!!!!!!!!!! -is angered.-

Red Queen(Queen of Hearts) - Kelsey Ramieka...I COMPLETELY agree with this choice. Kelsey was AWESOME as the Red Queen.

Mad Hatter - Jack Hogan...another one I agree with. When he read it, he was too slow, but Hannah and I pointed it out to him and he said he'd work on it. So, I'm happy for him.

March Hare - Peter Murphy...I guess that's okay. I don't know how Peter'll react, though.

Dormouse - Sam Creed...WHAT? WHAT? Sam Creed was wicked good! The Dormouse has, like, 2 lines. Grr. -is angered...again.-

TweedleDee - Bobby Lively...WHAT? I mean, HE can't act bossy and stupid. >:o.

TweedleDum - Bobby Patterson...ARE YOU SERIOUS? Bobby Patterson is one of the best, if not the best, male actor in Drama. He got two rolls because one of his is so small.

Hydrangea - Kayla Nicholson...she'll be pissed. She's a flower in the forest. I'm kinda pissed, too. Though I didn't think Kayla could be Alice, she could've been a bigger character.

Cheshire Cat - Sam Briggs...at least she's good. I can see her as the Cheshire Cat.

Monkey Grass - Hannah Johnson...is that a flower, too? What is that? Like, WHY ISN'T HANNAH ALICE? I DON'T UNDERSTAND -is angered...-

White Queen(who is that?) - Sam Ballert...she's PISSED. And I am, too. Sam did REALLY well as Alice, and I don't understand why she was one of the last names on the list of rolls.

Red Knight - Me...I'M A FREAKIN' CARD. JUST a CARD. I wanted to be something else and then a card on the side, you know? A CARD.

White Knight - Bobby Patterson...This is the small roll. It was the last on the list. And if the Cast List was written in order of the character's importance, Sam Ballert, Me, and Bobby P. are at the bottom.

Yeah, those are all the rolls I know. But I do know that Kim Zikmund got a part. So did Austin Morrison, who DIDN'T EVEN AUDITION.

So, yeah.............-explodes from anger.-

Seriously, though, I do NOT understand why Hannah isn't Alice. She was PERFECT in the roll.

I dunno, I'm done ranting about how pissed this makes me. Hopefully, I won't explode in Mrs. Fish's face at drama tonight. Seriously, though, if I don't think people are fit for their rolls, I'll gather everyone together and we'll go on strike.

Alright, I'm seriously done now. Let's just say that if I were the director, the cast list would be slightly different. And slightly is a metaphor for "almost completely."